Lost in winter

I have been fighting against chemical maelstroms in this unseasonable weather. Getting up early, catching up bus/train to university is getting so routine that I find my footsteps sometimes being electromagnetically sucked in backwards. I hardly speak in the whole day except to conduct class, I feel as the huge vacuums are swallowing my words. 1 hour return trip often catch me slicing on my phone screen and lost in the mournful croon of JJ’s song, 一眼万年. The fingerprints I left on the screen even seem to have diffused in blank air. There is a widening nothingness imposing its shadow on me. I feel my existence is impaired.